Why me?

This is my first blog..ever.
I stumbled onto this website and said why not? First time for everything right?
I usually don't tell people about the things I think about. I don't want to be judged. Always nice to get it out though.


I've always sat and just thought. Since I was little. I think about everything. Crazy, random off the wall, everything. I usually don't finish thoughts. Everything branches off into other subjects and I just create a massive web of beginnings that I'll prolly never find the end to.
I believe in God. I believe he has a plan for all of us. I've always been amazed at the fact that he chose this life, this body, this point of view for me to follow.
Why me? Out of the billions of people in the world, my soul is in this body. I see things so differently than most people. I've been through a lot like most people.
I've been very unfortunate, but at the same time extremely fortunate to always find a way out.
I can go through anything and find something good about it. I find some reason to make myself appear happy until I am. I fight for my happy until I earn it. Then I appreciate it that much more.
When I was younger I went through a phase where I thought God didn't exist. How could he let such things happen to me if he did. I prayed and prayed for him to help me, to save me, get me away from the pain.
Sometimes unanswered prayers are the best.
I grew up. I realized I needed to pray for the strength to get through not for my struggles to end. I needed patience.
I got what I needed. Now I know how to make the best of everything. No matter how bad it gets.